Malkovich's bio on facebook

I'm dumb and I screw things up.

"Marie came that evening and asked me if I'd marry her. I said I didn't mind; if she was keen on it, we'd get married. Then she
asked me again if I loved her. I replied, much as before, that her question meant nothing or next to nothing--but I supposed I didn't.

'If that's how you feel,' she said, 'why marry me?'

I explained that it had no importance really, but, if it would give her pleasure, we could get married right away. I pointed out that, anyhow, the suggestion came from her; as for me, I'd merely said, 'Yes.'
Then she remarked that marriage was a serious matter. To which I answered: 'No.'
She kept silent after that, staring at me in a curious way. Then she asked:
'Suppose another girl had asked you to marry her--I mean, a girl you liked in the same way as you like me--would you have said 'Yes' to her, too?'

'Naturally.'

Then she said she wondered if she really loved me or not. I, of course, couldn't enlighten her as to that. And, after another silence, she murmured something about my being 'a queer fellow.' 'And I daresay that's why I love you,' she added. 'But maybe that's why one day I'll come to hate you.'"


- Albert Camus, "The Stranger"


"the past is a grotesque animal, and in its eyes you see how completely wrong you can be.
the sun is out; it melts the snow that fell yesterday--makes you wonder why it bothered.
it's so embarrassing to need someone like I do you. how can I explain--I need you here and not here, too.
I'm flunking out, I'm gone I'm just gone, but at least I author my own disaster.
things could be different, but they're not. things could be different, but they're not.
our love project has so much potential. but it's like we weren't made for this world, though I wouldn't really want to meet someone who was.
somehow you've red-rovered the gestapo circling my heart, and nothing can defeat you... no death, no ugly world.
you've lived so brightly. you've altered everything. I find myself searching for old selves, while speeding forward through the plate glass of maturing cells.
even apocalypse is fleeting. there's no death, no ugly world.
sometimes I wonder if you're mythologizing me like I do you. we want our film to be beautiful, not realistic. perceive me in the radiance of terror dreams. and you can betray me. you can betray me. but teach me something wonderful. crown my head, crowd my head with your lilting effects. project your fears onto me. I need to view them. see there's nothing to them. I promise you there's nothing to them.
I'm so touched by your goodness. you make me feel so criminal. how do you keep it together? I'm all unraveled. but, you know, no matter where we are we're always touching by underground wires.
I've explored you with the detachment of an analyst, but most nights we've raided the same kingdoms, and none of our secrets are physical now."

- of Montreal, "the past is a grotesque animal"

Malkovich's love life

<@snowhuoue> let's hope he never finds out thatshe told me he had a small wiener and she laughed about him with her friends behind his back because she was stringing him along the entire duration of their relationship
<@snowhuoue> and the jokes he made about her having a big clit
<@snowhuoue> she pasted some convo with one of her friends
<@snowhuoue> where they joked about him being a woman
<@snowhuoue> with a big clit

<@anonymous> he got to sleep with her, joke's on her
<@snowhuoue> about that
<@snowhuoue> apparently he's into role reversal
<@anonymous> whatÉ
<@anonymous> what's role reversal
<@snowhuoue> I THINK YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN
<@anonymous> what i think you mean is she fucked him with a strapon
<@anonymous> i dont think its what you mean
<@snowhuoue> jesus you're sick
<@snowhuoue> but yes that's what i mean
<@anonymous> sigh
<@anonymous> double sigh

she didn't care that i'm a loser with no friends, job, school, or ambition and she's an introverted loser like me, who likes to get high and is fairly intelligent
you know? all of those things are hard to find in combination
especially the first one
i need a mother figure to take care of me and fix me :D